Chihuahua puppies

Its been almost a month since my last post. I have been so busy with my puppies to find a spare minute, I have everyone sleeping including my husband and I thougt I could get some zzz's also but sleep in not coming to me, I have meet wonderfull people this week and I find myself thinking how lucky I am to be a breeder and to make someone happy with a new life.  I love what I do and dont think I could go back to doing anything else with my life, I enjoy the wet puppy kisses so much.

all of my ooopppsss puppies have found new homes and all of them are going to great homes with loving and wonderfull people. I know that when its the right fit I get such a good feeling and I feel fantastic, I know that shannon will take such good care of her new dillon and lisa and robert will love Lucy and Andrea and her family will take such good care of her new baby girl. ( new name coming) I am sending weezer home in the next few weeks to live with Laura his new mommy, he is getting so much stronger and he will be the light of her life,  I know this one is going to hurt. I will just have to hugs my peanut a little tighter when he leaves. I know in the long run that every puppy that leaves me leaves a little peice of them with me, I will miss weezer and I love him sooo much, I know Laura will love him as much as I do and that is why it makes it easier for me to let go, She loves him also, He will always have 2 great mommys. I watch alot of dogs show and read lots of articals about dogs and puppies and I was watching the dog whisper and When he says that we project our feelings about issuse onto dogs and that it is a human emotion not a canine one, I so beleave it to be true, I have been struggling with a decison for about a year now and I am still on the fence. I know in my head that its my issue not the dogs but I dont know how to make it right with me, I am putting this out there in case anyone has any advise.

I have a male chihuahua. He is about 4 years old he was one of my very first litters of chihuahua'sI ever breed, I call him many names, Stone cold, Morgan bear, morgy bear, bubba. His name is jason morgan. I call him that when he is not doing what I want, and that is not often cause he is a good boy. My problem is this, Morgan 2 years ago was one of my dogs that was infected with parvo, his 2 brother died from it and morgan was the only one who survived, I spent 6000.00 dollars tryng to save these 3 boys, and morgan had blood tranfusions and he was in the hosptial for almost a month, He is perfect now and he is just an awsome little guy, I have never used morgan as a stud as he is a little bigger than I like to use, He is stunning, he is the rare steel blue color and he has the most amazing blue eyes i have ever seen, yes blue eyes are not a default in blue dogs. I have been on the fence about placing morgan up for adoption, He needs some xtra attention since he came home from the hosptial he has not been the same outgoing and happy go lucky dog, He is happy and loves to cuddle and he loves to play with my son and he just loves kids in general, but when he comes in the house he wants to sleep behind my dresser, I can not seem to coach him out unless it to eat and play outside, He wants to sit on my lap but when there are other dogs around he wont. I want him to have the best full and happy life and I dont know that being here with me is what is best for him, He needs to be with someone who can give him lots of one on one attention and will be patient with him as my family is the only people he has ever known, since coming home from the hospital he has been very what i want to call backwards. he is not aggressive he does not bite he just is very untrusting. I think cause I had to leave him there for so long. I visited him everyday and I had to drive 1 hour one way everyday to do it, but I made sure that he saw me everyday when he was in the hosptial, I then come back to the saying from the dog show, I am putting my human emotions on this dog, I need some help, What should I do, Should I find him a home with a family that he will bond with and trust or should I just let him behimself here with me,  I guess my second fear is that someone will take him and discard him when they dont want him anymore, that is my fear and I would not know what to do with myself if that ever happened, I took this dog for life, i just want him to have a better life than he has now. Any advise?